10.175
ajanma karinu muni ’nirakara’-dhyana
toma dekhi’ ’krsna’ haila mora vidyamana
SYNONYMS
a-janma—since my birth; karinu—have done; muni—I; nirakara-dhyana—meditation on impersonal Brahman; toma dekhi’—by seeing You; krsna—Lord Krsna; haila—became; mora—my; vidyamana—experience “I have been meditating on the impersonal Brahman since my birth, but since I have seen You, I have fully experienced Krsna.”
PURPORT
Brahmananda Bharati admitted that when there is an argument between the spiritual master and the disciple, the spiritual master is naturally victorious, although the disciple may put forward a strong argument.
In other words, it is customary that the words of the spiritual master are more worshipable than the words of a disciple.
Under the circumstances, since Brahmananda Bharati was in the position of a spiritual master, he emerged victorious over Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu, who considered Himself Brahmananda Bharati’s disciple.
However, Brahmananda Bharati reversed the argument and took the position of a devotee, admitting that Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu was the Supreme Personality of Godhead, Krsna.
This means that the Lord was voluntarily defeated out of affection for His devotee.
He was defeated voluntarily, because no one can defeat the Supreme Lord.
Concerning this, the words of Bhisma in Srimad-Bhagavatam (1.9.37) are important:
sva-nigamam apahaya mat-pratijnam
rtam adhikartum avapluto ratha-sthah
dhrta-ratha-carano ’bhyayac calad-gur
harir iva hantum ibham gatottariyah “Fulfilling my desire and sacrificing His own promise, He got down from the chariot, took up its wheel and ran toward me hurriedly, just as a lion goes to kill an elephant.
He even dropped His outer garment on the way.” Krsna promised not to fight in the Battle of Kuruksetra, but in order to break Krsna’s promise, Bhisma attacked Arjuna in such a vigorous way that Krsna was obliged to take up a chariot wheel and attack Bhisma.
The Lord did this to show that His devotee was being maintained at the sacrifice of His own promise.
Brahmananda Bharati said, “Since the beginning of my life I was attached to impersonal Brahman realization, but as soon as I saw You, I became very much attached to the Personality of Godhead, Krsna.” Therefore Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu is Lord Krsna Himself, and thus Brahmananda Bharati became His devotee.