2.20

sakhi he, na bujhiye vidhira vidhana

sukha lagi’ kailun prita, haila duhkha viparita, ebe yaya, na rahe parana

SYNONYMS

sakhi he—(My dear) friend; na bujhiye—I do not understand; vidhira—of the Creator; vidhana—the regulation; sukha lagi’-for happiness; kailun—I did; prita—love; haila—it became; duhkha—unhappiness; viparita—the opposite; ebe—now; yaya—going; na—does not; rahe—remain; parana—life.

TRANSLATION (Srimati Radharani continued lamenting about the consequences of loving Krsna:) "My dear friend, I do not understand the regulative principles given by the Creator.

I loved Krsna for happiness, but the result was just the opposite.

I am now in an ocean of distress.

It must be that now I am going to die, for My vital force no longer remains.

This is My state of mind.